quoting sartre, "existence precedes essence", which means that the most important consideration for individuals is that they are individuals—independently acting and responsible, conscious beings ("existence")—rather than what labels, roles, stereotypes, definitions, or other preconceived categories the individuals fit ("essence"). the actual life of the individuals is what constitutes what could be called their "true essence" instead of there being an arbitrarily attributed essence others use to define them. thus, human beings, through their own consciousness, create their own values and determine a meaning to their life.
i believe life is a continuous self disovery. it doesn't have to move like a linear graph following certain sequences the society demands you to do. it's a journey from one tiny dot to another one to another one continuously, interconnected, each with its own story.
i also think that life is about telling stories. what makes life interesting is the fact that there are so many different kind of lives out there. there are infinite variations of life going on. which is the reason why we read books, we watch movies, we travel. and we craft our own stories, to be as interesting as it could be, not to any specific audience, but to ourselves. so here, is a little fragment of my stories.
• since i was a kid i've always has interest in artistic, crafty, and graphic things. i loved watercolor painting, still do. made my own pop-up christmas card. art and craft was my favorite subject at school.
• my parents run a screen printing workshop ages ago. i used to help out. proud to say i used to hand-print little ducks on children's underwears. pre-computer era, graphics were all hand-drawn, traced with pencils, enlarged with film projector, cut with paper cutter, then screen-printed on fabric. on computer era, it was vector based. so i knew how to use corel draw and stuff back in the 90s, before people my age even know what photoshop was.
• i led a wall-magazine project in my teenage youth group. pioneered and published a monthly printed newspaper. handled all other kind of digital publications. this was all in the 90s.
• then i enrolled to architecture school to a public university because my parents couldn't afford paying tuition for me to go to a private design school i wanted to go to. had two architectural internships in bali and in singapore. and knew right away that i didn't like working in architectural field.
• developed passion for analog photography in university with all its delicate darkroom chemical processing and printing.
• had a part time job working on an architectural heritage conservation project, doing hand and computer drawings.
• adventure started out of college. worked in a furniture company. worked in a prestigious german car manufacturer as an in house office planner, in which i wanted to quit on day three immediately knowing i hated corporate job. worked in a danish architectural production company. then i got job in an environmental graphic design work! which was really aligned with what i wanted to do. despite the job, the working environment was far from ideal. so this didn't last too long.
• also experimented a lot in digital photography. got paid for shooting several weddings, professionally. also got my travel writing published in a magazine. paid.
• immersed long enough in interior design. in the hope to create and to see the result faster in interior than architecture works, i ended up involved in a very long big project which took up about 4-5 years to completion, which was not what i expected. despite this, it was great. encountering the top 1% doing all the luxurious projects was a good learning experience.
• worked my ass off for scholarships to study abroad, which was a project since i was a kid. majored in urban public space design, hoping to do something more than just to cater the 1% of the society. went to live and study and work in european major cities, madrid, milan, paris, and rome.
• started to learn web design and development as a hobby and really enjoyed the learning process. this one here is one of the result. aye. also this one.
all these experiences, interests, and curiosities is a ride in search of the value and meaning of the life i have. which probably i haven't found yet. but it turns me into who i am today and the ride still goes on. currently i'm working as a freelance in interior design and urban public space design. taking the flexibility of it to develop several ongoing long term and short term passion projects, still learning tons of new things. contact me if you need any services i could provide. also for any other kind of design projects, don't hesitate to hit me up for collaboration. i might not be good in "marketing" myself at all, but hey at least i try to be honest and genuine, to myself, and to all out there.
ps. i don't speak japanese, i just love the katakana and hiragana type. i do speak some italian and chinese tho.
all content © 2019 calosa k. all rights reserved.